Hello beautiful people of WordPress! My Law exams are finally done and dusted! Final year, here I come. Ironically, I am not so excited about it. While I love to make jokes about being a final-year student, the real me that y’all get to see here is mostly indifferent. I’m not really sure why, but I’ve spent the first two decades of my life getting an education, and maybe I’m at the point where I’ve had enough.
However, what keeps me going is the fact that it is not so much about acquiring an education than it is about becomings. Through this period, God is shaping me into someone, and that is why I stay in it.
I learnt something while writing my exams last week. I had four papers from Monday through Thursday, which was the first time I’d have a timetable that packed. It was quite a lot to handle. I had to study for tests, do assignments, attend classes and juggle other areas of my life while preparing for my exams. My lecturers kept piling on materials just days to the exams. My not-read list kept growing. I was so worried I wouldn’t be able to catch up with my workload, even though I had started reading early in the semester.
Then exams started. After my first two papers, I was drained. My brain was hazy, my body was weak, and all I wanted to do was sleep for a whole day. But I had two more papers to go. The funny thing was that on the morning of my second paper, I had attended a prayer meeting where I prayed for strength. What I felt however, was the exact opposite.
That evening, I mustered up energy and went to the place I liked to pray and just sat there in tears. I felt so woozy that I was sure I would be sick. As I prayed/cried, a Bible verse came to mind:
“If you faint in the day of adversity, then your strength is small” Proverbs 24:10
That changed it all for me. I know I’m a person of weak strength. I get worked up and stressed so easily. But I also know a God who’s an infinite source of strength. He never runs out, never runs dry! Another Scripture came to mind:
“Are you weary, carrying a heavy burden? Then come to me. I will refresh your life, for I am your oasis. Simply join your life with mine. Learn my ways and you’ll discover that I’m gentle, humble, easy to please. You will find refreshment and rest in me. For all that I require of you will be pleasant and easy to bear.” Matthew 11:28-30 (TPT)
All I had to do was make an exchange. The devil wanted to limit my vision to only see my lack of strength to pull through. Thank God for revealing the rest of the story. Although I didn’t feel strengthened immediately and my body kept trying to succumb to illness, I kept reminding myself that God is my strength! I refused to give in to my body’s cry of weariness. I can handle pressure, through Christ who strengthens me! I don’t know what tomorrow holds, but if I have to face pressure again, I’m certain I won’t cave in.
The point I’m trying to make is that life is full of pressure! It wants to have us, but we must remember that God is our strength! Like me, you may be really weak, or maybe you’re very strong, whoever you are, you can do with a little more strength! Don’t give in to the pressure! See it as a challenge to lean on God for strength!
Don’t you know? Haven’t you heard? The Lord is the everlasting God; he created all the world. He never grows tired or weary. No one understands his thoughts. He strengthens those who are weak and tired. Even those who are young grow weak; young people can fall exhausted. But those who trust in the Lord for help will find their strength renewed. They will rise on wings like eagles; they will run and not get weary; they will walk and not grow weak. Isaiah 40:28-31 GNT